Things I Usually Don’t Talk About

I remember through the years of my life I would see people mourn the death of person they had never even met. I thought it was ridiculous that people would mourn the death of a celebrity or some “great” person that never even knew they existed. Yet, today my heart is heavy with thought of Robin Williams’s death. I grew up watching his movies, laughing until I either cried or ran to the bathroom in fear of wetting myself. My heart though is not heavy because I felt close to him or because he was my role model. My thoughts continually linger on the question: “What causes someone to take his/her own life?” I am sure many could attest to Mr. Williams helping them laugh when they felt they couldn’t even smile. He helped so many people see the light at the end of the tunnel; maybe he gave a few a little lantern to help them until they saw the light. He helped people hold on when they were depressed feeling inadequate or hopeless. It breaks my heart that he felt so downhearted that death seemed like the only answer. I wish there would have been a “Robin Williams” for him to maybe help him hold on a little longer.

I was one of the many people that thought depression was something you could just get over. When I would here about people fighting with depression I felt like they were stupid. I mean, come on, seriously, can you not just be happy? Then, I battled my own fight with it. Let me be the one to tell you that it is very real. The first time it happened to me I didn’t even realize what was going on. A dear friend pointed it out to me. Every few months I feel the depression trying to sneak back into my life. And being completely honest I will tell you it is scary. I know I’m not alone and I hope one day my story can help someone else. Maybe then, the fights won’t feel like they’ve been in vain. At the moment though, with this on my mind, my heart is broken for the Williams family and especially Robin. I wonder how it could have been different. I pray that his family is given the space they need to heal and that God gives them peace through this heartbreak. What more can I say than Goodbye Robin Williams and Thanks for all of the laughs you have and will still bring to future generations.

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